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Monday, May 30, 2005 =D

CHinese O..hm..blog for ytd and today...

^^^YESTERDAY~~~

go woodlands library study chinese.this library is gd.much better than jurong east.JE sux...humph..then at library study,eric sms me,say his ex hate us.wadever..argh..hate this kind of love triangle game,sick and tired of it.i been though love triangle before,have been tired of it.Y did her ex me and him the situation is totally same as my past..yyy?its so...wadever.
he fixed it and he seems so sincere and did so much..its time to not waste anymore time.i will not be afraid of BGR anymore.perhaps,its time to accept him.after my O,i will..perhaps..study til damn late today sia.study til 1AM

^^^TODAY~~~

i only know 3 words,god damn shit,i study so hard yet i only got 3 correct.then after the O,i go gym with hui fen and li zheng.hm..then very tired..
go home,james on9..miracle..thought he die le..
eric on9..feon,haix..the triangle game again...ok..if in the end,this triangle love is settle,and after that he chose me,ok..fine..after its settled,we stead lor.
y mostly when i fall into deep love,there is a love rival.:(..this is sad.no matter wad.i will always very sad when i fall in love.finally,i decided not to avoid that i like him ,chose him,but y when i want to stand up,someone will try to push me down.
kel,he nv replies me.after that one sms,i decided.he perhaps is too determined.although there is improvement,as its the first time he replies my sms,i cannot change him.therefore,i chose not to wait anymore.maybe feelings cannot be control,but if he really return which is a slim chance,i will consider him carefully...
later help eric made his blog ba..

Mood:argh..duno la..

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Saturday, May 28, 2005 =D

this is atrocious...this is madness...this is sadness..:(..

today is atrocious go library study chinese got scold for study using the sofa and say can only study on the table.i study using table.then in the end,lucky got table in the end thanks to lw frenz.then good lor...but we listen discman tio complain discman too loud,we whisper tio complain talk wad talk...this is atrocious,wad the hell is going on?y today is so argh..madness everywhere..i hate this..
then after that go jp,buy refresher cox i am a sleeper then go buy pimple cream becox full of pimple that time buy wrong cream...and go play DDR want to try new songs in the end,the songs sucks..yucks..but speed over i jump one grade le..heex..weird i can only focus on one leg which i cannot understand y? y andYYY???three arrows this leg one arrow this leg?wad is my this leg doing?this is atrocious something i cannot understand..MY LEG!!
kel nv reply my message le..guess he not free..guess we can only be friends le..i chose not to love him..maybe its another atrocious ending..

at night,at tuition i finally completed the assement book,great!!hehex...
go back from tuition,i go bath,check my sms,eric ex cry le..

another flirt crying for patch,enough of this patching nonsense..enough of this craps,enough of this shit..enough of this sadness enough of the history repeating...the history of my past is sad enough i cannot take in another.now my situation is damn damn complicated..this is shit...this is sadness..this is madness and damn atrocious...if history repeat i rather not chosing anyone and cry til siao...
enough..argh...wad the hell..if u were me wad will u do?

Mood:atrocious day..madness and sadness..wad is this??lee wee virus le la..copy her atrocious that word..

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Friday, May 27, 2005 =D

sobx..:(...

before recess,hui fen lend me zhan shen!!yesh!!feel so happy.after recess,go to hall,for the wad so ever talk,i fall asleep in the hall,my frenz say i sleep very cute..haiyo..malau..duo y i like to sleep so much..argh!!after that go to class and get report book..i want to cry le..so lousy can go bang my head on the wall now.if this is O level result,i will commit suicide.after school,go find wei yang.^^then k box,then go home..wad should i tell my parents?..nvm,i will just work hard for my fatal chinese..chinese is so extra.

Mood:moody...lucky wy is there..hmm..everytime i am down,he is always there so coincidence,haix..he is just too nice ..

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Thursday, May 26, 2005 =D

wad a day...

today because morning assembly,sec 4E and 5N did not greet the teacher,we had to do push up position,push up and sit up.this is so idiotic.my class got greet him.

chinese lesson,i just contine learn the chinese book and memorise the words.all i can do is read again and again repetively.
then after that i read true singapore ghost story6^^ this author rox..i love to read this kind of stuff la duno y..hehex..
after school,then go home lor..hm..ytd steven send my lame photo he taken in his handphone.diao!!-_-""

haix...if u were me,how will you chose,you definately dun want to change the destiny u have correct?but i did not know,should i change it?
I scare of leaving you also scare of having you.i am scare and happy of destiny,scare and happy of the prediction i see for myself..
yesterday,eric told me his ex like still likes him a lot.i tell him to patch,his ex tell him to stead with me.all i can say is,i did not know why,i feel so scare of losing him if he patch,yet i still ....i was surpised tat i got sad out of sudden when his ex still likes him.i wonder,searchinh for my heart,wads the big problem with me?yyy??:(i am afraid of the cards.if not because of the cards,maybe,now its different,maybe same also..
haix,if the sorrows in the past isn't haunting me,if if if...actually is my choice,but because of the tarot cards i know myself better,and scare of relationship more and more.

Mood:hm...bored

PS:hey,you guys so hardworking for mother tongue,must jia you wor

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Wednesday, May 25, 2005 =D

photo taking..

ytd the class photo taking is great!i stand at the last row for the fun shot.the pose we make is damn funny.the first formal shot i gave a borig face.that kind of going to die already that kind of face:P..second formal shot i give me best smile,hm..duno which they will take.

today is a deadly morning.its so rainy.lucky there is councilors lending umbrellas to students.then,just as i about to reach the school,the umbrella flew upwards.then ,i put it to the side,its back to normal.what the hell!!!today mock exam is difficult for the informal letter,but i dun like formal letter.so i just write informal no matter what.i know i am stubborn but thats me;)..then after school,i didn't know that a choir phototaking need to wait til four plus to take it.the delay was long.it should be long time earlier.the second fun shot,i climb to the highest bench,maha was surpised and i push maha head.hahax..thats fun!!i think that only side view of her face is appear if the second fun shot is chosen.MUHAHAHA!!

no matter what..today is a deadly day...
i went home,open my inbox,didn't block me..hm..i look at the time sent,that timing i was online..forget it..since is never block okay fine..nv block ba..

Mood:deadly day..

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Tuesday, May 24, 2005 =D

haix..:(...

today at school so bored..tomorrow there is chinese mock exam..i mock the exam le..idiot .at school,play tarot cards..help my frenz to fortune telling...after school,i miss the it course at nanyang poly..no body called my class to go..haix..i saw rebecca its seems a long time never see her already..then go jp and then go home and shit i forget to bring my keys..:(:(...i hate myself for being so blur...when can i wake up and not blur just for a minute??argh..slap my face ...

A secret reveal from someone...
y must u do this to me??i dun understand...sobx..y y y??u seems too difficult to understand..sobx..y can't u just stop this?..its hurts..argh...y u are so determined?..i cannot understand..i could not..its not that there is anyone fault or something...

haix..my mind is in a mess,my life is in a mess...

To kel:if u think that leaving me is a great choice and i can get less hurt,u are wrong...i rather want u back and i will be satisfied..even if just frenz a damn normal frenz i am satisfied i am enough..really..

haix...sigh...yyy??

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Monday, May 23, 2005 =D

hm..today..

HOUSE OF THE WAX IRKS!!and very disguisting..okay.today got study chinese la..also got go jp and actually want to play ddr de..the guys cut queue..knn..then forget it..then wy cut new hairstyle le..then he hor..so bad..keep run away from me..i feel so sad de lei..y do this to me..?then in the end run back le lo..then suddenly feel that he is so mesmerising ...omgomg..had i fallen in him?..i am afraid to fall in love,afraid to fall too deep..i guess..there is no turing back now..i duno..
ARGH!!forgot to take his photo..actually is ps to take his photo!!hm..hate myself..

james die til where liao..nowadays nv on9..hm..

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Sunday, May 22, 2005 =D

haix...wads my feelings towards u??...

guys around me,
all are jerks,
because my friends all love to ditch people,
i cannot find someone different,
even if i had,
perhaps i cannot trust it anymore,
perhaps i will never trust anything that is very everlasting,
i had no trust in anything completely now,
just because of the enviroment i am in,
the sickening world,
ditching world,
i am sick of it...
y great devoted guys just isn't by my side,
i sometimes ask myself,
y i only know jerks,
now i know devoted ones,
so wad?..
i duno wad to say,
wad to feel,
wad to reply,
i had totally no comments..
the trust and fear in me had gone..
perhaps never be back again..
can he bring the trust back,
i can only say...
i duno...
wad should i do?

y relationships surely have hurts and sorrows,
that is a thing that makes ppl heartbroken,
make me wants to be single..
yet u guys..confused me..haix..

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today..hm..no comments..read lo..

decided to go je library and study..in the end,its close,we went to IMM KFC and study.i was shocked when i saw sir jason there.He had been transfered to work here already.the idiotic gay manager..wahaha..change into such a sucking hairstyle...he sux..then steven came along...the lamer..but he not bad la..then after that,go jp and photocopy,then go kfc and saw shi hai,ask him for free ice cream..hehehex..then go and play DDR lo.,wa..my leg pain sia..the nails..argh!!..then go to gek poh MAC and eat...

then i went home lo..

MooD:alright..

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Friday, May 20, 2005 =D

bored ..tired..exhausted..i feel sleepy..

today at school,do chinese and sleep ..then after school,go jp walk walk...haix..so tired...then go home..then online yea..karmun want to burn for me ge dou tian wang!!!YIPEE!!i love u manx..then she also give me the dl all those chinese video website hehex...

strange..james normally everyday online,y today he didn't?hm...nvm nvm..
today is a bored day yet i tried not to sleep duno y..lolx...

channel 8 7pm show is nice..duno since when i start to like tv again...
quote from the show"as long as you are happy,i am happy."

Mood:i am happy enough...because you are..as i think so..so i am really happy,satisfied,really...

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Thursday, May 19, 2005 =D

老鼠爱大米歌词

老鼠爱大米歌词
我听见你的声音有种特别的感觉让我不断想不敢再忘记你我记得有一个人永远留在我心中哪怕只能够这样的想你如果真的有一天爱情理想会实现我会加倍努力好好对你永远不改变不管路有多么远一定会让它实现我会亲亲在你耳边对你说(对你说) 我爱你爱着你就像老鼠爱大米不管有多少风雨我都会依然陪着你我想你想着你不管有多么的苦只要能让你开心我什么都愿意这样爱你我听见你的声音有种特别的感觉让我不断想不敢再忘记你我记得有一个人永远留在我心中哪怕只能够这样的想你如果真的有一天爱情理想会实现我会加倍努力好好对你永远不改变不管路有多么远一定会让它实现我会亲亲在你耳边对你说(对你说) 我爱你爱着你就像老鼠爱大米不管有多少风雨我都会依然陪着你我想你想着你不管有多么的苦只要能让你开心我什么都愿意这样爱你我爱你爱着你就像老鼠爱大米不管有多少风雨我都会依然陪着你我想你想着你不管有多么的苦只要能让你开心我什么都愿意这样爱你

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its just another day..i forget to bring ezlink card..walk home..

hm..boring..at school..yippee..i completed half of the red chinese book.feel so satisfied.kabate!!hm...after school,take bus to jp then i walk home so sleepy.
i want to sleep.but i think better study..!!

Mood:i wake up le..must work hard le..really must...

PS:wish me good luck!!!haix..:(...
PS:wish everyone good luck!!!haix...:(...

luck got use ar...is hardwork..no matter how many gd luck also useless..haix...exam ...y are u so idiotic and make everyone so sad??why??..haiyo..

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a poem...impossibility

want u to be back and forgeting u,
is just like wanting the sky not to be blue,
wanting the trees not to be green,
wanting the sun not to be yellow,
its impossible...
the one who hurt me most..
is the one i love the most..
its okay...
i am willing to retreat..
but i will still wait..
forever like a fool..
hope that u will be back..
its okay..
as long as you are happy,
even you do not love me,
i am willing to be hurt,
willing to let u and her happy forever...

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Wednesday, May 18, 2005 =D

hm..bored..Zz at class..my mp3 disc finally back!!miss it so much

today,its a boring day.i went to school for check script only.In the hall,they say some motivation stuff about O level.Its so boring.Mr tan expression is so funny.make me want to laugh.strange who hack into his hp and play pranks on my friends?the person must be damn bored and nothing better to do.

after school,i went to jp,wa piangz..stupid kw..bluff me he is his bro..wad a lie!!then still lolx..make me laugh sia...he sort of cute nowadays somehow,also duno y i think that way.maybe he funny thats y lo.then after that i go home lo..

then,go home,of course is online lo..wad can i do?..nothing...Lao shu ai da mi very nice..i love it..haix...

Mood:mixture
Ps:wad i want?i want to know...just want to be happy..dance DDR forever and ever never ending...but can this be done?...i want to go out and play everyday to forget sorrows..but can ma?...haix..can only study...this year sux..y sux so much..argh..

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Tuesday, May 17, 2005 =D

today is a damn boring day...

early in the morning wake up..ZzZz..haiyo..i want to Zz la..pig is pig..no choice..sleep is my hobby..lolx...then went to school,piangz..my legs feel tired maybe its because of yesterday.then today give back all the results...^^,..yipee i score highest for chinese oral...wt..i didn't expect it as i remember i did not know what to say at a certain topic..sin ping score full marks for listening..woa...what a sharp ears she got!then the rest of the papers,its sux..knnb..y like that all the result is so lousy..:(all the time limit fault la..hate it
AM only 2 ppl pass..hahax..wt...-_-""all the result is so dot dot dotx..
POA,AM,eng,comb humans,i failed.i am such a failure...nevermind there is always next time.at least i improve in my compo^^jia you shi yan !!you can do it de...chinese sure can de..as long as i completed the stupid junks of assesment books...duno how la..but somehow i hate all subjects..argh..

Mood:this few days,the sadness of myself i feel that its reducing rapidly but i am not sure...i feel quite so call not as sad as last time le...but i am scare..i will be sad again...scare that this is just deceiving myself.deceive myself that i had forget,i am happy til i myself did not know...then one day i realised..its too late again..Am i temporaily happy only or not?...i have no idea...got mixture of confused feelings.

PS:i want to watch nc16,house of the wax and the amypille...someone treat and accompany can?no money yet feel like spending money...haix..no money is so sad..

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Monday, May 16, 2005 =D

today is fun and tired..

morning,i go hui fen house...well,i help her use tarot cards and predict wad she want to ask..then afternoon,hui fen and her bro and me go jp,play arcade.woohoo!!!long time nv play ddr le...its so fun...i miss DDR lots and lots!!
then after that,wee wee saw me dance,my choir junoir also saw me dance..hm..so lee lee siao siao..dotx dotx.. but i love to dance..it somehow,when i dance its one of the happiest thing i felt,especially when its some song i am gd at(can't think of anysong..)..somehow...but i am lousy at dancing...then,just after play finish le..we walk round and round jp..okay..name it as loiter suan le..

then suddenly saw shi yun!!shi yun!!miss ya babe..long time no see u liao..hahax..then hui fen bro go home first..3 of us go imm...then go the daiso..i saw a small whistle and its nice..thinking of putting it as neclance...cool..no one have that idea before..it will be unique..(dun copy my style hor..!!)

then we go back to jp..hui fen go home first..then left i and shi yun.we go dance ddr again..woo hoo..!!dancing with her is better..because somehow i can dance better duno y..haha..then we walk around..then by the time reach home ten plus le..

guess that many ppl online today..james that guy..serve him right waiting..who tell him that time make me online whole day....hahax...actually that day online is because i nth better to do so i online whole day de la..but so naughty so serve him right waiting the whole night..but not fair..9++ online..only let him wait 1 hr..humph..

Mood:mixture..

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NICE QUOTES i found accidentally on my frenz book and i like it..

ru guo ai ni ni hui xin fu,wo jiu ai ni....
ru guo bu ai ni neng ran ni xin fu,na mo wo jiu xi huan ni...

na ni de xin fu ner?
wo de xin fu jiu shi ni de xin fu..

this quote i saw it..i find that i feel like saying this to some1..hm..guess the someone will know

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Sunday, May 15, 2005 =D

book shelf arranged!!!woo hoo..

brought a new bookshelf.Finally,my room is much more tidier than i think.woohoo!!..thats great.feel more spacious now.the feeling of spacious is so great.never knew that a new arrangement will improve my mood.hehex...hm.basically also nothing to do today.

tomorrow actually play dai di de right?..y change?change to do chinesethink and think.i finally think that study come first.after chinese O,i will be playing like mad..muhhahaha.today i completed the chinese green book!!woohoo!!so satisfied with myself.to award myself,i surf net lo..-_-""reading on9 love story.i did not know since when i love to search all tose bo liao stuff and read and read.library books too boring le la.TV shows,mostly not good enough.hm..wad else?..yupx..i downloaded complete son of the mask part 1 le.hm..waited so long now then complete..wt..wt...wadever...

knnb..tomorrow after study hope got ppl accompany play ddr can marx?..pray hard..my leg itch!!i want to dance thats all i want.stupid~!!! y i kana blister on my toe for nth??

i know kel block me again,because is unusual for him to not online at this hour.Forget it.things that are not yours,no matter how hard you want to lock it,it will run away.i realised it long ago.but now,i know,perhaps i can recover faster.i must,no matter how hard,how painful.

Y am i realising every single thing in my life so late?
should have realise the concerns of my friends.determined...to be happy:):)

Mood:much better.hope that forever better.

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Saturday, May 14, 2005 =D

hm.thanks to you ..really..

this post is delicate to my good friend,li zheng.she is a good girl.Its her.cheering me up.let me know that i must be happy.she delicated the post to me,telling me life needs to go on.really thanks thanks for telling me to be happy.all because of u.i promise,i will try my best not post sad stuff anymore.i will cheer up.think of every happy things around me.i promise.

Thanks a lot..really.thanks for a infinity..

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haix...bored...yyy???...haix..i got thousand and one why??...

why must there be exams?
why must love hurts so much?
why must people do things with no logic,just like me?
why is it so difficult to control the feelings?
did i control my feelings too much that it got a reverse impact and got more hurt?
should i just let it be?
am i a foolish girl,brainless?
why did i have so many sorrowful friends?i got 1,2,3,4.4 alot u know??
why did some people did not seems to have any problems?
why must we gone though the grow up process?
why must humanity be so selfish and cruel?

I got 1001 why why and why!!!
i just dun understand...fools,saddis around the world...spreading sad diseases huh??haix...i become a more negative thinker now.

enough of the cruelity world.its too much!!..
awaiting for monday...better dun cancel at the very last minute.
i want to play dai di,play ddr and dance like mad.long time never dance le....
better accompany me..haix..

today is so bored..in the world of emptyness..wad is this?..u tell me??...argh.!!!
i feel like touching tarot cards again...perhaps i should..but ask too much is not good.its a belief that its not good to you if too much question is asked.i have cleared my doubts.awaiting for future which i believe to come true.premonition confirm the prediction.

i changed too much,a lot.this 4 years i got rapid changes....keep changing.especially sec 3 and 4...i miss the friends of normal academic.they are so united.unlike my class,i did not feel the unitedness somehow,something is amiss.my class is lack of something i could not tell.wadever...

y so many ppl didn't on9...miss them leh..no one chat in the afternoon..

Mood:bored..bored..still..its bored

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feelings...

i will be right here waiting for u..premonitions...will they come true?...weird..i break a thick glass bottle.it did not break.instead,a heart shape etched inside.its nice.woohoo..such a nice bottle after the fall..lols..haix..weird unsure premonitions..wad is it?...haix...dun think too much le shi yan..be urself..u have changed too much.time to change back...

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rang wo ai ni by vic

Rang4 wo3 ai4 ni3

Sing by: zai and da s

Da s: mei2 you3 qi3 fu2 de qing2 xu4 yin1 wei4 ni3 chu1 xian4 hou4 hua2 po4 ping2 jing4

Zhen4 han4 wo3 yi3 jing1 feng1 bi4 de xin1 bing1 shan1 he2 xue3 zai4 rong2 jie3

Zai: hui2 dao4 chu1 ci4 de xiang1 yu4 feng1 zai4 chui1 yi1 ge4 ren2 du2 zi4 mei3 li4

Hui1 de tian1 kong1 wei4 he2 mei2 you3 biao3 qing2 ni3 de xin1 xia4 yu3

Da s: jiu4 rang4 wo3 ai4 ni3 mei2 you3 le zi4 ji3

Zai: can2 po4 de guang1 ying3 hei1 an4 zhong1 shen1 shen1 xi1 yin3

Jue2 dui4 di4 jiu4 suan4 sheng1 ming4 suo3 sheng4 wu2 ji3

Together: zhi3 yao4 yong1 bao4 shun4 jian1 de mo4 qi4

Da s: Jiu4 rang4 wo3 ai4 ni3 zheng4 ming2 you3 qi2 ji1

Zai: Zai4 kuang3 ye3 de xin1 ling1 hun2 de shen1 chu4 you3 ni3

Wo3 yuan4 yi4 fang4 qi4 shi4 jia4 wei1 xiao4 er2 qu4

Together: xing4 fu2 hen3 yuan3 xin1 que4 zai4 yi1 qi3

Da s: guo4 qu4 zong3 shi 4 hui1 bu4 qu4

Zai: zai4 jian qiang2 ji4 yi4 reng2 xiang4 e4 meng4 bu4 xing3

Da s: wo3 de lei4 shui3 tang3 guo4 ni3 de tian1 kong1

Zai: yu3 xia4 bu4 ting3 xin1 hao3 tong1

feng1 xiang4 hua4 bi3 kan4 zhe wo3 Ni3 de rong2 yan2 jin4 zai4 feng1 de qian2 tou2

Da s: wo3 de xin1 hua2 chu1 di4 yi ci4 de cai3 hong2

Together: yin1 wei4 ni3 wo3 xiang1 xin4

Da s: jiu4 rang4 wo3 ai4 ni3 mei2 you3 le zi4 ji3

Zai: can2 po4 de guang1 ying3 hei1 an4 zhong1 shen1 shen1 xi1 yin3

Jue2 dui4 di4 jiu4 suan4 sheng1 ming4 suo3 sheng4 wu2 ji3

Together: zhi3 yao4 yong1 bao4 shun4 jian1 de mo4 qi4

Jiu4 rang4 wo3 ai4 ni3 zheng4 ming2 you3 qi2 ji1

Zai: Zai4 kuang3 ye3 de xin1 ling1 hun2 de shen1 chu4 you3 ni3

Wo3 yuan4 yi4 fang4 qi4 shi4 jia4 wei1 xiao4 er2 qu4

Together: xing4 fu2 hen3 yuan3 xin1 que4 zai4 yi1 qi3

Together: xia4 yi1 ge shi4 ji4 rang4 wo3 ai4 ni3

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only lonely-akon

"Lonely" -By AKoN-

Lonely im so lonely,
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,
im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,

Yo this one here goes out to all my play as out there ya kno got to have one good
girl whose always been there like ya
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave

I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side,
coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna
figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin

Im so lonely (so lonely),
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all
I put u thru u still stuck
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you
were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you
been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would
be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see
then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely

So lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girrll

Never thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, I jus want u
to call my phone, so stop playing girl and
Come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and
you to work it out, I never wished Id ever
Hurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girll

Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, so lonely, (so lonely), Mr. Lonely

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Friday, May 13, 2005 =D

haix...i am sorry i didn't come...for the outing ...

in the morning...i cried...nowadays i cried for nothing...like a melancholic...i dun understand why...sorrowful tears in my heart,for u and for myself...
BTW...i create a story i written myself go read and give comments!!

MCQ exam...i just do it without full concentration...life is just so meaningless..

today...so many ppl ask me go out..if i did not go..dun be sad...i dun understand her tears ...hui fen u gt li zheng..if i can or cannot go..u still got her accompany...

nowadays...its so sadistic...its so..no comments and so argh...

y is the world of sadness,world of agony,world of tragedy haunting me...:(:(:(...

i am full of sad frenz around...(dun mention names)..they are sad..sadistic...crying and tearing so much..and i am one of them...y must the world be full of sadness everywhere???...i dun understand..why must the sociality be so cruel?..i cannot stand it..this world is too complicated..too cruel..too scary for me..and i am too fragile...i am just a normal person..y must everyone suffer from the cruel world suffers and agonizing treatments..

ahhh...i cannot stand the world of hypocrite,saddis and jealousy anymore...

i miss the times...

WHATS PRESSURIZING ME???
-guys who jio me...i hate the pressure...i hate it.....
argh..stop presurizing me...i have my rights and decision..
not for u guys pushing me around...!!!!

-haix..james..duno what to say about u...
nv seen u in real life...
know that u are a good guy..
u are awaiting for me to put ur name in my blog right?..ok lo..
actually want to put ytd..but u did not fit into the content only..
u are a good guy..really...but why me?...haix..
treat me too good...i not used de..understand?...its just..ahh..forget it..

-haix..eric..what should i do with u??...let u wait for 1 yr or 2 ma..
i feel like doing so..its not just after exam that kind of thing and ans given..
because..i am really scare..scare forever..scare of love hurts,sorrow hurts..
sometimes i am too tired of hurting anyone...am i really so worth it i wonder?
eric..if u seen this blog but i guess nope..i want to say..i think ur ex still love u..i been though her shoes..if serious enough,she will have a scar in her heart..a painful stab..she will been though wad i did..which is so painful

lucky the two ex..did not have true feelings with me...i might have hurt them..
y??...i cannot just..be happy ever after..

i finally wake up...perhaps...i should..forget u..and must....but can i?...really can ma?...

kel,..if u read this..i want to say...its not fair..i am the only ex u block.. for 7 mons and i dun understand..then y did u not block yileen?...its not fair...well,no difference perhaps..but i want to be ur frenz..cannot ar?...now u unblocked me..dun block again i tell u..plz..pleading u...

Mood:my sorrows..no one could understand...its too pain..far more than u think..my hurts..is far more worse than u think..beyond my control...so much so that..just let me be peaceful single til i happy..til i ...forget...til i recovered..i duno when..haix..

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Tuesday, May 10, 2005 =D

hm...what should i say ner..

its glad that at least we are frenz not avoiding...much more better...i hope that he dun block me again...never ever hao ma...maybe is i pester him too much thats y he unblock me??...i duno..but i got a weird intuition..a feeling that something is going to happen..hints are everywhere..something to do with me...maye i think too much i duno...i forbid play tarot cards for myself le..Now only play for others..must mend back the life that i played..

Will it be true?...the ending?...ytd night..was a stupid sleepwalk study..i wake up every one hour to study a few minutes and went to sleep..wth..i feel like..i am sleeping not studying..lol..

Mood:exams duno la....haix..now...fate...follow it ba...if wad i fortune telling of myself is true..come true ba..i dun mind...this is the most unbelievable card..XD

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Sunday, May 08, 2005 =D

he unblocked me...:)..wad can i say...

today is so bored..i play gb and study at the same time..so bored..

its a surpise he unblock me...i thought that he will just..just ignore the email i sent him..i am glad..at least..at least..er..i duno how to say..

well..speechless..impossible he unblock me..hahax...continue study...

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Friday, May 06, 2005 =D

hm...hahax...help me think of a christian name

today..hm..paper i think i out of point..boom le lo..haix..wad can i say?...
after exams,i and yu fen and tg go jp...then duno yu fen is deliberate pai seh us or angry sia...tg whisper to me something then she like angry and walk away..tg fault la..haha..then return books liao then we saw hui fen and li zheng..say we stead..wa.how can anyhow say de ar..later i cry de wor..hahax..then we go buy things to eat..i eat the slowest then they blame me..my fault ar..is because u all eat first de ma..then we go hm..where ar..ya go 3rd floor then after that tg go first...then okay lo.after that we go library..then hui fen borrow tons of books again..hahax..then we went basement..the bend christian name de bracelet so nice le..haix..must think of a christian name then go buy..must..give suggestion leh guys..like cannot find a christian name...:(..

Mood:better then ytd??...duno..haaha

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premonition,,,intuition...dreams..hinting me ma??

ytd i had a dream..nv in my life i remember that dream so clearly manx...
i dream for repeatious places where i and kel patch happily together..i saw a very good ending..so good that..its look fairy tale and i cannot believe my eyes..then after the patch,...i saw my hand..i try to read my palm..out of suddenly my palm shows thati will have lots of obstacles and my life is shorten a lot..its scary..hahax..

i think that...i should forbidd myself touching tarot..its hinting me to stop..hahaax..

Mood:destiny...i duno what to think of u..whether should i thanks u?...

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Wednesday, May 04, 2005 =D

nowadays...life...is so miserable...makes my mood swings here and there...

haix...i got prob manx...i will suddenly sad and wadeva..and then sudden happy...what happen to me?..

sometimes study so hard..sometimes so slack..wads going wrong with me??

Single rox..i should have trust it long ago...haix..now its too late..i can never return to the shi yan i used to know..the one who is cheerful and no trouble..

Y kel in the first place?...my love for him is so deep that no matter how hard i struggle..he cannot get out of my mind....he is just too perfect..y is he so perfect?..:(:(:(...i want u and only u...haix..but haix..no chance menx..

haix..til now i still can cry for kel...i feel so sad..On the other hand...i am tired of thinking him...tired of feeling sad..but i just can't stop it..even i myself feel sick of it..sick of mentioning it..i can't help it can't stop it..i am addicted to it..

Eric says he likes me...i got a fear inside me..a darkness..i am afraid we will hurt each other,afraid we will break,afraid of another part of sad memories..scare that my heart will be shattered totally and nv recover again...

past months,i had been a total bitch..i stead with the 2 guys which perhaps i dun really love thats y i dun cry when we break ba...substitutional game?....i duno..not substitue..its i duno how to say..
y i accept them so fast but not eric,have i fall in love again and afraid of hurt thats y i dun accept him?

the guy who had the same similarities,so compatible with me,love me alot,understanding,tender...kel..he had gone from my life..

tarot..predicted..we will meet and patch...i will not accept eric..
the chances are so slim..but tarot is a damn true thing..
if this is true..destiny,what should i think of u?..

this few days,exams is difficult and no time...except for physics..my only hope...

Mood:love is so aweful...if i had a choice,what will i chose again?..sobx..mixture of mood swings...

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